• Stream Queen

Resignation from the Itty Bitty Titty Committee

Updated: Sep 4, 2019

Background-

I am not lying when I say I have been waiting for this day for TEN YEARS. I remember being in Jr. High and realizing all of my friends were getting boobs... except for me. Then the harsh reality hit me towards the end of high school, I would never have boobs bigger than an A/small B cup. I've been skinny my whole life (except for a few months when I was on birth control, but that's another story) and the fact is, because of my genetics, I was destined to have small boobs for the rest of my life. So, ever since realizing this, I have wanted to get my boobs done.


I went into my first consultation at Vincent Surgical Arts in Cottonwood Heights, Utah in the middle of March of 2018. I loved the clinic and everyone working there so much, and I scheduled my surgery the next week. Counting down the days until April 26 was like torture, all I could think about was finally having boobs and being able to fit into clothes that I never could before.


Surgery Prep-

I did a LOT of research leading up to my surgery day, so I could make sure I was fully prepared for the recovery. Here is a list of things I bought to prepare for post-op:

  • Wedge pillow (you will need to sleep on an incline for several weeks after surgery)

  • Arnica Montana tablets (helps with bruising after surgery)

  • Ginger Ale

  • Crackers

  • Cocoa Butter Stretch Mark Lotion

  • Vitamins- C, A, Zinc

  • Heating Pad

  • Large Ice Pack (I got a large rectangle gel ice pack from amazon that covers my chest completely)

  • Lots of pillows to lay/sit propped up

  • Applesauce

  • Button Down Pajamas

  • Zip Up Sports Bra

My surgeon told me to take Vitamins C, A, and Zinc every day for two weeks prior to surgery. He also gave me a LONG list of things I could NOT take for two weeks before surgery- including advil, pepto, ginger supplements, and a whole bunch of random medications and supplements.


Day of Surgery-

My surgery was scheduled for 8 AM on Thursday, April 26. I have some pretty amazing friends, one of whom took work off that day to help me out. He came and picked me up and drove us down to my surgeon's office. I went over my decision on size and placement with my surgeon. I showed him a few 'wish pics' of my goal size and shape. He said he would try 425-450 cc (CC's is how they measure implant size, NOT by bra size!). I was a little disappointed because I was hoping for 500 cc. I wanted to be BIG. I read so many reviews on RealSelf.com of girls that didn't go big enough and regret it, and ended up going in for revision surgeries to increase their size anyways, so that was my biggest fear. Toward the end of our quick consult, I basically told him to go with the biggest implant he could fit in my body. I am very petite, so I knew he would only be able to fit up to a certain size anyways.


I got into a hospital gown and was taken into the surgery room. The anesthesiologist hooked up an IV and I remember staring at the ceiling and started feeling light headed and passed right out. I woke up in a recovery room, about 45 minutes later. I was incredibly thirsty (I couldn't drink or eat anything the night before that morning) so the nurse gave me water. I was super groggy and out of it, but I remember the doctor came in and proudly announced he was able to fit in 500 cc- HELL YES! I was SO happy!


They wheeled me out to my friend's car and he drove me home. He hung out with me all day since I was basically confined to the couch, I was in so much pain that reaching my arm out to the coffee table to get water or a snack was unbearable. I was taking my pain killers regularly- hydrocodone every 4-6 hours as needed, as well as diazepam for muscle spasms, and an antibiotic. I was also given an anti nausea med, but I haven't needed it at all.


My boobs were all wrapped up in an ace bandage, with a tight white band at the top of my boobs, to help push them down. I alternated icing my boobs 20 minutes on and 20 minutes off all day.


I slept on the couch, propped up with a bunch of pillows. After a breast augmentation, you have to sleep with your head elevated for several weeks after, which I luckily find pretty comfortable, but I know others have issues with sleeping that way.


One Day Post-Op

Day two has been worse than yesterday. I woke up ridiculously still and feeling super tight, and unfortunately I had no one here to help me today. I've been getting by with moving as little as possible and when I have to move, I go as slow and gently as I can.


I'm still icing 20 minutes on and 20 minutes off, and I've had a heating pad on my back pretty much all day. My boobs feel rock hard and the strap to push them down really hurts.


Quick info about implants-

When you first get implants, the implants sit very high on your chest and look very deformed. The surgeon creates a pocket in your chest that the implant will eventually settle into and look like regular boobs, but that takes several weeks. So as of right now, my boobs are high, tight, and hard- which is normal! The strap helps push them down into the pockets to settle in, and every day they will look more and more natural.


That's about all I have for now, I will be making a boob job experience video as soon as they are healed and look better, but for now I will post updates on here for anyone that is curious:)


Questions from Instagram-


How much did it cost? My surgeon has a March special going on when I went in for my consult, so I paid $4900 for my silicone implants (normally about $5500)


What size did you get? I got 500 cc silicone moderate+ profile under the muscle, with the incision below my breast.


Where did you go? Vincent Surgical Arts in SLC, UT


What is the recovery like? This was addressed a little above, but as of right now I am only two days post-op. I have a very hard time going from laying on the couch to sitting up, I can barely reach for things on the coffee table, and dressing/undressing is also difficult. My boobs feel extremely tight and hard, since the skin is stretching so much. I've also been getting 'zingers' which is where the nerves in my breasts regenerate and cause a strange, sharp, sudden pain. I am pretty groggy from the pain pills I was prescribed, and as long as I stay propped up on the couch, I don't have much pain. It's really just when I try to move around do I start to hurt. I should be able to start walking longer distances in the next week or two, and working out lower body a week or so after that. It will be several weeks/months before I can do any upper body workouts.


Why did you decide to get your boobs done? First of all, I am naturally very slim. I have been skinny all my life, it's just my genetics (thanks, Mom!). I realized in Jr. High and High School that I would never grow boobs past an A or small B cup because I have such little body fat to begin with... boobs just weren't going to happen naturally for me. Now don't get me wrong, I love my body and loved it the way it was, but getting a breast augmentation was something I've wanted since I was 13 years old. When I got into my twenties, being flat became more of an issue for me. I would constantly get mistaken for a high school student because I look so young. I couldn't fit into half the clothes I wanted to wear because I was flat and didn't fill out the clothes I was trying on. Bikini shopping was hell. Bra shopping was worse. Wanting to wear a low cut dress out to a club on the weekend? Forget about it, because all that would be showing were my rib bones. I didn't get a boob job because I was insecure in myself or my body, but

because I wanted to be able to feel more confident in certain clothes and feel more like a woman, instead of a girl who hadn't hit puberty yet. Everyone has different reasons and opinions on breast augmentations and they are all valid, but these are just my personal thoughts of why I wanted the procedure done for myself.


What size did you go to?-

(First, here's some background info on bra sizes and boob jobs)- Boob jobs aren't measured in bra size. You don't go into a consult with your surgeon and say, 'Yeah I wanna be a 34 DD please, thanks!' and that's that. Breast implants are measured in CC's (cubic centimeters). To put in perspective, 5cc= 1 teaspoon. You can choose between silicone or saline implants, but both are still measured with CC's. When I was doing research prior to my surgery, I learned that it was a huge no-no to go into a surgeon and tell them you wanted to be a size 36DD (or whatever size). The reason for this is because every woman has different boobs (duh), and it is hard for a surgeon to determine what bra size you are going to end up with after the surgery because your new bra size is based on your current breast tissue and the implant that is inserted. A woman that starts with a C cup might be able to get away with a 200cc implant and wear a DD cup after her surgery. A woman that has a small A cup and is given that same 200cc might only end up a B cup after the surgery, since she had less breast tissue to start with. So I went into my consultation with pictures of my 'wish boobs', meaning proportion and shape, even though I had no idea what bra size 99% of the photos actually were. I never once mentioned a what bra size I wanted to be to my surgeon and he never gave me an estimate of what size I would end up, because bra size just isn't a focus during breast augmentation, the focus is on the look and fullness.)


When I tried on sizers, I originally thought I wanted to go with a natural look, and go from an A/B cup to a C cup. When I got home and looked at more pictures, I realized what I actually wanted was quite a bit larger than what I thought I wanted at my consult. I was thinking I would end up in the 275-300cc range at my first consult, and when I went in the day of my surgery, I asked for 500cc, a HUGE difference! My doctor told me he couldn't guarantee that size and it just depended on my chest measurements and how much my skin could stretch and what the implant looked like once he cut into me in surgery, but he agreed that I would end up somewhere in the 375-500 range. Which is a huge range, I know, but most of the time the surgeon has the final say of the implant size based on your body and how it looks once the implant is inserted. Like I said above, I woke up to the great news that he was able to do the 500 cc implant, which I am ecstatic about. I was very scared that I would end up with too small implants and be disappointed with them.


And finally, to answer the question, how big am I now? I have no idea! Since my implants are still high and tight on my chest and haven't dropped into their natural position, I am having a difficult time measuring my bra size because the implants are a bit distorted still. My guess is between a D and DD though, but I'll have a better idea in a few weeks once they drop and fluff.


What outfit are you most excited to wear after you heal? Bikinis! And anything low cut or with a plunge neck, like dresses, crop tops, body suits, etc. Literally anything that shows off cleavage, I'm excited to wear, because I never have felt confident wearing things that are meant to show off cleavage (since I had none, lol).


Do you pay all at once or can you do a payment plan? This depends on your surgeon. Some surgeons offer financing in their clinic, and others have agreements with banks for financing. You can also save up the money, apply for a CareCredit card, or take out a personal loan through your bank. You do need to pay all at once prior to surgery though, whether that is with money you have saved up, or money that you have taken out as a loan, or with a credit card.


What is the difference between silicone, saline, and gummy bear? Silicone implants are are a silicone shell filled with a silicone-gel, and saline implants are a silicone shell filled with saline (saltwater). Silicone implants are known to look and feel more like real breasts and are more expensive than saline, however they are more risky if they leak. Gummy bear implants are silicone implants that are teardrop shaped, which can give a more natural look.


Why did you chose silicone? I chose silicone over saline because I wanted the more natural look and feel of silicone than what saline gives. I did not want to go with gummy bear, or the teardrop shaped implants, because I wanted the upper fullness that the round implant gives, which I wouldn't get as much with a teardrop shaped implant.



Two Days Post-Op-

I slept on the couch again last night, and I plan to every night for the next week or so. My pain pills made me ridiculously out of it last night, at one point I woke up and turned on the cartoon movie Antz and Madagascar 2 after. Do I remember watching either of these? Not at all, haha.


My chest is feeling less tight finally, and my boobs don't look all rectangular like they did right after surgery, which means they are starting to 'drop' into the pocket. I still have bruising and swelling on my sternum and I have to be extremely careful when I sit up or reach for something or walk around.


I haven't had much of an appetite, so far I've been surviving off crackers, this bag of 'brownie brittle' I grabbed at the store (it's amazing), and jamba juice. My favorite has been the 'fruity pebbles' flavor off their secret menu, with whey protein added to help my muscles recover. Needless to say, I am not maintaining my keto diet right now. I decided to go off keto for a few weeks for my surgery because I wasn't sure how being in ketosis was going to affect my recovery and I didn't want to risk any negative complications. As soon as I'm feeling better, I'll be resuming my workout routine (slowly) and easing back into keto for Tomorrowland in July. But for now, my focus is on giving my body the rest it deserves after being cut open.


Keeping up on my medications is a bit of a chore, since I have so many that all needed to be taken at different time increments. I have-


Hydrocodone- 1-2 pills every 4-6 hours as needed

Anti-Nausea- As needed (haven't needed it)

Muscle Spasm- 1 every 8 hours as needed

Antibiotic- One pill twice a day

Arnica Montana- 5 pellets three times a day for bruising (can't tell if this is making a difference or not)


I have a pretty low pain tolerance so I've been taking my hydrocodone every 2-3 hours to stay on top of the pain, it's a lot easier to manage when you stay on top of it instead of letting it get bad and have to get it under control again. Needless to say, I've basically been a zombie since Thursday, drifting in and out of sleep, and trying to get on my phone but writing things that make absolutely no sense. So huge apologies if this blog is scatter-brained and and my instagram videos make no sense as well, it's the medication's fault!


I did a lot of research prior to my surgery and was fully prepared for my boobs to look very deformed and strange the first few days, almost like rectangular shape. They did look like that for the first day, but they are looking much better now, only two days later, so that is making me super excited that they are looking more like normal boobs than I was expecting in this time frame.


Luckily, I got my surgery on a Thursday, and I didn't work the next day (Friday) or today (Saturday). But I also took work off Monday-Wednesday this upcoming week, which I am so thankful for. If you are planning on getting a breast augmentation, I highly suggest taking more days off than you think you need, just in case. There is no way in hell I would be able to go into work on Monday and I am very happy I get almost a full week to relax and recover.


Three Days Post-Op-

I know you've been waiting for it, so here is a before and after picture! Top photo was taken the day before surgery (4/25/18) and bottom photo was taken three days post-op (4/29/18). Yes, I had fake tanner applied in the top photo that has gotten washed off since my surgery, which is why there's such a drastic skin color difference, lol.



4/25/18 vs. 4/29/18

4/30/18 (4 days post op)


NOW, before you think, 'OH MY GOD HER BOOBS GOT BOTCHED!' lemme explain a little bit about implants that I didn't even know prior to doing research about my surgery. There is a long, complicated, medical explanation as to why implants look very high on your chest (and are square-shaped) right after an augmentation, but I'm not going to get into that cause I'm not a doctor. If you are interested in reading more about exactly what is going on, you can get on google and read more about it. But after a breast augmentation, the implants sit high on the chest and look very deformed for the first several weeks. After a few weeks, the implants go through a process called 'drop and fluff', in which the implant 'drops' into the pocket that the surgeon created in your chest, and 'fluffs', where it fills out and forms a more natural breast shape (as opposed to the boxy-rectangular shape it looks like right now). This is a completely normal process that everyone with implants goes through. So no, my surgeon didn't botch my surgery and my boobs didn't end up messed up, I am at a normal healing stage for the surgery and they will continue to heal and fall into a natural shape in the weeks to come (I'll upload pics as well). So, if you are looking into getting yours done, keep in mind that this will happen to you right after your surgery, and you shouldn't plan your surgery before a major event like a vacation or trip or wedding (since your breasts will still be in the awkward shape phase).


Five Days Post-Op-

The past few weeks I moved from my old house to a new house, so last night I stopped by my old house to do one last check to make sure I didn't leave anything there. Even though I was on painkillers, my chest hurt SO BAD! I was holding my boobs the entire time and had to move very carefully because random, small movements would hurt. I plan on hanging out on the couch all day today (again...) because as long as I do, my pain is minimal. Today is the last day I have of pain pills, but I am going in to see my surgeon tomorrow for a post-op appointment. Depending on my pain, I might ask him to prescribe a few more. Wearing the white strap HURTS like hell, I really hate having it on but I know it's necessary to help push the implants down to settle.


5/1/18 (5 days post op)- My skin is splotchy because I've had a heating pad on my chest all morning

Six Days Post-Op (AKA The Day from Hell)-

Today was quite possibly one of the worst days of my life. Last night I took my last pain pill before I went to sleep. I had ran out of muscle relaxers the day before but I had been feeling pretty good with minimal pain so I thought I was ready to transition to Advil for my pain management. I woke up this morning and HOLY HELL the only other time I have had pain that bad is when I had a blood clot in my lung when I was 18 years old. I had my first post-op appointment with my doctor at ten thirty, and I spent all morning with my heating pad on my chest crying on and off because of the pain. I somehow managed to drive 20 minutes down to my surgeon, which was infinitely more difficult than I thought it would be, and waited in the waiting room for about half an hour. By the time the nurse brought me back into an exam room and asked me how I was doing, I totally lost it. I started hysterically crying and somehow managed to tell her how much pain I was in in between sobs. She gave me water and cleaned my incisions, and about 20 minutes later my surgeon came in (needless to say, it was busy today). I told him I ran out of my painkillers last night and he said I should have called them and he could have sent another prescription. I felt like an idiot and told him I didn't know I could do that since narcotics are highly controlled, and I thought once I was out of my first prescription he gave me, I would be unable to get more.


He told me that this much pain was unusual this long after surgery and he hadn't seen anyone in as much pain as I was in years. He prescribed me percocet (I was previously on valium), more muscle relaxers, 800 mg of ibuprofen, and a small round of steroids to help with the swelling. He did an examination on my implants and told me they looked great (cause they do ;) ) and said there wasn't any issues with the implants or incisions, they were healing perfectly. I was in so much pain because I went from being so small to such a large implant, and going under the muscle increases the pain as well.


They called in my muscle relaxers and ibuprofen to my pharmacy and I got a physical copy of my percocet to drop off to fill. I got in my car and was about to suffer through the drive up to a pharmacy near my house when I realized I LEFT MY FUCKING WALLET AT MY HOUSE. I was pissed off, mad, sad, and just burst out in tears again. I was in so much pain and all I wanted to do was get my prescriptions as soon as possible so I could lay down. I drove up to get my wallet, then out to the pharmacy and gave them my prescription. They said it would be about 15-20 minutes, which was much longer than I wanted to wait there but not long enough to make it worth going back home for a few minutes. I sat in Walgreen's, curled up in a ball, literally crying the entire time because of the pain.


FINALLY I got my prescriptions, went home immediately, popped four different pills and finally laid down with my heating pad pressed to my chest. Within 15 minutes I started feeling like I was floating and the pain slowly started easing up, thank god for percocet.


I thought I would be good enough to be go back to work tomorrow (exactly one week post-op) but after today's disaster, there is no way I'm going back to work this week. So I got the rest of the week off and will stay on the exact spot on my couch that I haven't moved from since getting home from surgery.


This will definitely be the longest update since it was the most eventful/awful, but here's a progress pic of my implants. It's crazy how they change so much every day! I am IN LOVE.


6 Days Post-Op (5/2/18)

By the way, I just want to address the several messages and comments I have received from guys saying things along the lines of- 'You looked great before, I don't think you needed surgery', and 'I liked you better before'.

There are SO MANY THINGS I have to say about these entitled asshole comments, that I could write nearly a novel about it.

Comments like these, especially from strangers, are completely inappropriate, uncalled for, and so ridiculously entitled it blows my mind. For guys that have never met me to think they have the right to tell me they prefer me before my surgery, or to tell me they don't think I 'needed' surgery, pissed me off to no end. For some impossible reason, they must think I got these implants to impress them specifically and to hope they find me more attractive afterwards- which obviously couldn't be further from the truth.

I have wanted implants since I was a young teen (like mentioned above). I wanted them for ME. I wanted to feel more confident wearing things like low cut tops, or bikinis that showed cleavage. I have never once, nor ever will, have the reasoning that I got my implants for anyone except for me- ESPECIALLY random guys I don't know on social media.

I know this isn't just an issue with me- I see this all the time with girls who do something to their bodies to make them feel good- whether that is lip injections, liposuction, implants, breast reduction, or any other type of cosmetic procedure.


Dear guys, get over yourself. Girls don't do things to their body with you in mind. They do things to make themselves happy and give themselves confidence- NOT FOR YOU. We literally DO NOT CARE what you 'prefer', if you think we looked better before or if you think we look 'fake' now. So keep your entitled, douchebag opinions and comments to yourselves.


(Sorry about that- rant over- I have just been furious about several of these comments today and wanted to address it personally)



9 Days Post Op-


5/5/18- skin is splotchy because of heating pad, excuse the bandaids that are helping keep my incisions clean!

Every day, they are looking better and better! They are dropping into the pockets nicely and are rounding out more. They are also getting softer than when they were first put in (they were hard as rocks!). I am SO HAPPY with my results so far, and I can't wait to continue seeing how they improve over time.


Two days ago I leaned forward and noticed 'rippling' along my implant in my cleavage. I freaked out and immediately went into my surgeon's office. He said it was normal, my skin has been stretching so much so fast, so the skin is being pulled extremely tight (and you can kind of see that in this photo as well, but the shadows also don't help). Rippling is where the implant ridges are visible through the skin, and usually happens with saline implants that are placed over the muscle. Luckily, I got silicone, under the muscle, so this isn't true rippling- it's just my skin stretching so much, so fast, to accommodate the implant. I've been massaging with cocoa butter lotion and vitamin E oil.


I'm dying to go into Nordstrom and get bra sized, but because the implants are still high and not fully dropped or 'fluffed', there's not really a point yet because whatever they measure me will likely be different in a few weeks or even days. I've plugged my measurements into several different calculators online and I've gotten so many different results- D, DD, even F and G! I am very slim, my band size measures 28 inches, so even a regular 32 band size bra is way too big on me. It's going to be a challenge finding bras that have as small as a band size as I need with the cup volume, I'm going to have to find 'specialty' bras that are strange sizes like 28DDD. As happy as I am about finally having boobs, I know it's going to be a struggle finding correct fitting bras from here on out... but it's definitely worth it!



Last thing for today, got a super interesting message from some random guy on instagram, linking a post to a doctor's instagram that posted a picture of a woman's removed implants that had gotten infected or something. The guy basically chewed me out for promoting getting implants to my followers and that I should have done my research before making this decision. It seriously blows my mind the audacity and entitlement that some people have and what they think they can message to complete strangers. I did MONTHS of serious research, after doing several YEARS of light research, before my surgery. I read the risks, the complications, the potential issues, everything. I made an informed decision about my body and decided to go ahead with getting my surgery. It's true, some women get complications from their implants and end up needing them removed. But, there is a risk involved with anything in life, and the fact that this guy felt the need to essentially tell me I didn't do my research before making a life-altering decision just really irritates me. I am not trying to 'promote' getting implants, let's get that clear. I am being open and honest with my personal experience so I can hopefully help other women out there that are interested in getting theirs done, and so they know what to expect and what the process is like. I'm not telling anyone to go get surgery. But, I'm also not going to hide and pretend like I didn't get mine done, I would rather be 100% honest and open with my followers and anyone who stumbles upon this blog or my social media, and yes that means telling my progress, my story, uploading pictures, and everything in between. Obviously if you are thinking about making this big of a decision, I would hope you do a ton more research besides reading the information I have been providing, and that you would make an informed decision like I did.


Three Weeks Post Op:







My skin is so uneven from quickly applying self tanner to only the top half of my body so please ignore the color haha. My right implant has dropped (left in the photo) and the other one hasn't yet, so yes they are uneven (for now). Which is normal! They won't drop at the exact same time



Wow, I honestly can't believe it's already been three weeks! I am super happy with my decision still. My incisions are healing nicely and next time I see my surgeon I am going to ask if I can start wearing the silicone scar sheets to help minimize the scarring.


I went into Victoria's Secret and was measured as a 30 DDD! Although I can't do anything with that information since I'm still wearing sports bras- I won't be able to wear underwire bras for a few more weeks, my incisions are still too sensitive.


They are feeling so much softer than right after surgery, they actually feel like normal boobs (almost). I massage them several times a day still, which helps keep the pocket open. I've been using cocoa butter lotion formulated for stretch marks specifically and I don't see any stretch marks forming, so hopefully none will!


Pain wise, everything is okay. There is a slight pain on my left boob which you can read more about below. They are SUPER sensitive though. Last week I had really bad 'zingers', which felt like little electrical shocks in my breasts. I called my surgeon and his nurse told me that those 'shocks' were really the nerves regenerating themselves and making the connections again, which is a good thing! But, unfortunately for me, that means they are ridiculously sensitive, to the point where wearing clothes actually hurts (from the fabric rubbing against my skin). It's weird going from having zero sensation in my breasts (shortly after my surgery) to being in pain because they are so sensitive. Hopefully that goes away though.


Now that my implants have had a chance to settle in to the pockets and the swelling has gone down, there is ONE thing I am concerned about. You see that indent on the right side of the picture below? (it's my left boob). I have been FREAKING out about it ever since I noticed it a few days after surgery. At my post op, I was told it was normal skin stretching, but today I noticed my left breast is a big higher on my chest than my right, which looks like it's fully dropped already. What's weird is I only noticed this when I was taking photos for this post- it's not noticeable in the mirror at all! Breasts dropping and healing at different rates is totally normal though.



it's the fake tanner... I promise I'm not covered in dirt...


What I'm worried about with the 'dent' is that it's an early sign of capsular contracture, a pretty common side effect of implants. It's where scar tissue forms and hardens around your implant and you need to get surgery to get it fixed in most cases. Whatever is going on with the indent hurts, sometimes I randomly feel a pain there, and when I stretch out my arms or move, it hurts there as well (my other boob is pain-free). Like I said, breasts will heal at different rates and it's common to have some pain in one breast and none in the other, according to RealSelf.com. I'm just a slight hypochondriac and worry about anything that is slightly off, which is why I'm very worried about this dent thing. I have an appointment to see my surgeon on Monday (May 21) so hopefully he can put my mind at ease about whatever is going on.


I'm REALLY hoping it's just rippling, since I'm thin and didn't have much breast tissue to cover the implant, or that it's just my skin stretching. But I'm worried that because it feels tight and hurts, that its capsular contracture. Although, I've been doing lots of research and the general consensus is that it takes at least 3 months for a capsular contracture to form, and that it is pretty much impossible that it forms 3 weeks after surgery, which is the only thing reassuring me at this point. Although, the hypochondriac in me worries that I'm the one-in-a-million person who forms a capsular contracture just weeks after surgery.


I'll post another update after I meet with my surgeon on Monday, keep your fingers crossed for me! <3


One Month Post-Op



How has it been a month already?! Tomorrow, it will be exactly one month since my surgery. When I went in for my three week post op, my surgeon said that the 'dent' is not a capsular contracture (thank god), and that I still have some swelling. It's uncertain if the ripple will completely go away, only time (a few months) will tell. If it doesn't, I can get fillers in that area to hide the ripple, if I want.


My surgeon said I was okay to start using scar treatments, so I've had silicone sheets from the brand ScarAway on my incisions ever since. Luckily, they aren't actually noticeable as is, but I'm going to treat the scars as much as I can anyways.



WHY is it so damn hard to get an even fake tan?! This is with Loving Tan Dark, and I am not impressed. For having such a cult following on social media, I had high expectations :(


My left (the right side in the photo) is still catching up to the right (left side in photo), which looks fully dropped. My surgeon told me to start wearing an underwire bra during the day and a tight sports bra at night to keep them lifted and supported. I went to Nordstrom to get sized- and was informed that I am a 28H. TWENTY-EIGHT H! Do you know how hard it is to find bras that size?! Impossible, if I try to find it in a store. So from now on, I'll have to order all my bras online- and spend quadruple the amount that I was before. I guess that's the price to pay for boobs.


Return to the Gym:

Anyways, I started going to the gym this week. I started with the treadmill first and just walked, so I could see how my boobs felt so I didn't push it too hard. The next day I tried jogging, and that was a huge NOPE. I don't know if it's too early in my healing process to start running, or if I need a crazy expensive sports bra to compress my boobs more, but either way I won't try running for another week or two. I was able to use the elliptical though, and I could go as fast as I wanted without any pain in my chest, so I will be sticking to that for a while. Next week, I will start getting back into weight training, focusing on lower body and abs (no chest workouts for now).


Keto:

Not gonna lie, it was a bit difficult for me to go from eating whatever I wanted during recovery and get back into keto. But, I was able to motivate myself to start up again so I've been back on keto this week. I have just over seven weeks before I leave for New York, Paris, and TOMORROWLAND, which is about twice as much time than I had to get in shape for Ultra this year (4 weeks).


One Month + One Week Update

Every time I take pictures, I swear they look different! I guess that just goes to show how much they are constantly changing ('drop and fluff') in the months after surgery.


They have evened out a lot more, in an earlier update I mentioned that the right had dropped lower than the left, but they are looking a lot more even now.


Since I haven't posted any pictures of my incisions/scars, here's one-



Scar Treatment-

For the past week, I've been wearing silicone sheets- the brand I use is called 'Scar Away'. It's kind of like a large bandaid that is coated in some silicone on one side that adheres to your skin (you can see the outline and texture from it in the photo). Obviously my scars are very new and it's still early on in the healing process so it will be a while before they are less visible. However, the scars are well placed and not noticeable, even in a bra or bikini.

There are tons of scar treatment options, including creams and gels, but I like using the patches because they are covering the scar nearly 24/7 and won't get wiped away like a gel or cream would.


Stretch Marks-

So far, I've been really lucky and haven't developed any stretch marks. The morning of my surgery, my surgeon said there was a chance I would get stretch marks due to the large implant size. For the four weeks after surgery, I used Palmer's Cocoa Butter Lotion for stretch marks several times a day. I use it every few days now.


Do they feel natural?

I've had several questions on Instagram asking about what the implants feel like. Keep in mind that silicone feels more natural than saline. That being said, I am honestly surprised and impressed with how my implants feel. Breast implants have a pretty bad rep for feeling extremely fake but I totally disagree. They will continue to change and get even softer for the next two months or so, but they are already pretty squishy and soft. Obviously they don't feel EXACTLY like natural breasts, but do they feel noticeable unnatural? Not to me.